Diary 61

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I'm still young.
I won't give up.
You may beat me to the ground and make me bleed.
You may taint my pride to the level where I may felt devastated.
You may just attack me in anyway you wish until I couldn't fight back.

BUT let me tell you what.
I DON'T CARE.
NOT A FUCKING SHIT WAS GIVEN.
I.WILL.NOT.BE.STOPPED.
NOBODY.CAN.PULL.ME.DOWN.

Diary 60

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I had more that one life.
So, don't judge me by the cover.

The cover I put up doesn't define me at all.
It is just a kind of appreciation or confirmation;
Stating, I didn't wasted my life, slacking.

And so that,
I'll always remember how I been shaped. 

Diary 59

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Okay, stop remind me about the life I had here.
I don't meant to live only one life.
Damn it.

LEAVE. ME. ALONE.
I'm not everyone.
I'm not anyone.
I'm Ah Tang.

Even the normal Tan doesn't fit me well.
Can you guys stop whatever you are doing ?
Thinking of trying to makes thing better instead it becoming worse.
I don't really care. ><

Diary 58

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Aiks.
Today should be a good day.

Why do I have to show people or list down all that I have done in my life to others ?
YOUR APPROVAL IS NO NEEDED IN MY WAY TO LIVE MY LIFE.

Diary 57

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Thank you for being picky on me.
Thank you sincerely for upgrading me;
And degrading yourself in front of me.

Appreciate what you try to did there.

BUT, let me tell you something.
I'm NOT THAT EASY to get defeated, SUCKER !

Diary 56

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Hello.
Good day everyone.
It may sounds girly or a man to have some mood today.
But dude, trust me;
I'm a human as well.
Human bleed and cry.
And so, this is my mood right in the current.

I live in this world. I suffer and I enjoy.
I born to this world. I give the world and take from the world.
I'm nothing. I'm just  a mere human.
In fact, I'm just atom, a relative space;
Which might not even defined by any scientist.

I'm someone who enjoy atmosphere, I live to feel.
I feel life.That's why;
I suffer, I complaint;
I enjoy, I compliment;
I avoid, I fear things;
I embrace, I inspire;
I bring passion, I can continue my life.
I do everything good and try everything bad.
I. DO.NOT. FEAR. LIFE.

I seriously hope that I can meet someone like me.
It's definitely ok if we cannot be friend, or best friend.
But let me know, that, at least I'm not alone in this planet Earth.
I promise, I'll keep my stances, and it will be just pure relationship.

For all the loss that happen to me, I'm fine. 
I don't care if I get way too little bit as reward for a huge effort that I put in.
I really don't care, cause I care the most is the bond. 

Diary 55

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Hmph.....
I wasn't really wanted to jot anything down actually.
but still, I'm gonna do it here. XD
*human are contradict*

When I said, "I don't give a fuck anymore."
It means I really don't give a fuck anymore.
And just stop re-mention the thing over and over AGAIN.

Well, thank you for the consideration to get over it.
I hope no one will re-mention it again though.


If you do wanna mention it, 
continue reading....

I don't give a fuck about the thing that you done wrong.
It's your fault anyway. Just admit it. I won't EAT you. 
Instead, I'll just take it as never happen, or something similar.
If you just admit it. 

But things will get kinky and dirty when you start avoiding and start finding excuses.
I believe in you capabilities to lead but not your capabilities to follow.

Look inside you for your capabilities to obey order and at the same time, lead the group of people that follow only to you. Chinese proverb : "一山还有一山高“. Don't you copy and understand ? That's how you are in a organization.

That's all I would like to say.

- End -

Diary 54

Chances were given,
and tolerance has been enough.
No more bits of me are interested on this shit anymore.
Lone ranger are lone ranger.
I DON'T NEED ANY COMPANION.

Diary 53

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Retard are everywhere.
I have always thought no one was ever a retard or brainless.
Or maybe they still understand simple English.
In case if they don't, 
Chinese, Malay. What else ?
Japanese, Hangul ?!
I can help Google translating as well !!!
JUST FUCKING TELL ME AND LET ME KNOW WHICH PART OF MY EXPLANATION WAS NOT FUCKING ENOUGH ??!!!!!!!

I ain't gonna repeat the same thing ever with anyone who DO NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING.
Unless.

Diary 52

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Bad cycle, bad cycle.
You copy I copy,
You do you part and I do my part.
We don't have to explain and discuss.
We just do it.

DUDE!!!
Than why not I just do my own group assignment ?!
I would me faster and not anticipated for the discussion to occur if I were to do something without having the need to discuss lah !!!
Some more I still have to follow the damn useless rule in the discussion and do the assignment according to it. 
Damn it !

USE YOU FUCKING BRAIN !!!!!!!
I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.
Stop pushing my limit I'm not superman.
I know a lots of stuff,
I can keep on learning the stuff that I don't know yet.
BUT NOT IN THIS WAY !!
DO. NOT. TEST. ME.

Diary 51

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No one have ever wanted to understand you.



No one.

Its obvious, words bring no feeling. 
But sadly the fact is, nobody read emoticon.
Nobody read emotion.

They are all just puppet. 
That control by their emotion.

What worse is,
there must be clown to handle the show. 
I would prefer me to not having any dream at all.
Each and every fucking time a chances,
there will be heart-wrecking moment, 
not just normal heart breaking; 
It involve throwing all the principle and dignity away as well.
Dignity to chase the dream.
Principle to not give up.
And faith to just continue are getting less and less.  

A given chance is just another way to witness failure.
To witness thing that unbeatable, in this fucking place.
This whole fucking world of mine is just fucked-up !

At last, I would prefer to had a discussion first, 
Before everything was set.

And please, 
DO READ EMOTICON.