.
Well, Its NOT OVER yet !!!!
Erm, being an asian, I'm a bit KiaSu.
Which meant I got scared of losing.
Admit it, we all hate the feeling of losing something or someone.
Especially when we used to worked so hard to get it.
So I really can't blame myself for being so KiaSu sometimes.
*But I do admit what I'm weak at actually* #FaceThickLikeHell
Alright, back to main topic.
Quoted from the lyrics "Demon" by Imagine Dragon,
" How matter What we breed, we still are made of greed." ;
Its really true that we are all greedy, we eager to success;
kept on urging ourselves to learn more and more and more.
Just Don't Stop Trying and Doing.
Everyone are the same in this term,
And we can't blame ourselves of being greedy too;
*cause we worked for what we really want to appreciate.*
So here I am.
Declaring the formation of the Tang.
LOL!! Anyway, I'm back to be aggressive. *(a bit)*
Hopefully this time, it won't be like last time.
And even if thing got worsen this time, do stay strong and fight'em back.
Show that you gain something from mistake or lesson too. *whatever the thing is*
STAY STRONG. and BE AWESOME !!
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Diary 37
.
Har~!!!
Arh~!!!
Erm~!!!
Hee~!!!
Argh!!!!
*flipping-table
*stomping-ground
*throwing-paper
*Whatever!!!!
Heaviest subject ever, Math.
Thx for abusing, or torturing.
Whatever.
I don't give a damn shit bout thing that happen later on.
LEAVE ME ALONE!!
Yea, the more you want it away
the more it coming back to you. Whatever.
WHATEVER !
WHATEVER !
WHATEVER !
JUST WHATEVER!!!
WHAT-SO-EVER!!!!
ITS GOOD IF I CAN UNDERSTAND;
ITS GOOD IF TEST/EXAM DOESN'T EXIST AT ALL, OR EVER.
SO-CALLED SYSTEM.
#Whatever.
Har~!!!
Arh~!!!
Erm~!!!
Hee~!!!
Argh!!!!
*flipping-table
*stomping-ground
*throwing-paper
*Whatever!!!!
Heaviest subject ever, Math.
Thx for abusing, or torturing.
Whatever.
I don't give a damn shit bout thing that happen later on.
LEAVE ME ALONE!!
Yea, the more you want it away
the more it coming back to you. Whatever.
WHATEVER !
WHATEVER !
WHATEVER !
JUST WHATEVER!!!
WHAT-SO-EVER!!!!
ITS GOOD IF I CAN UNDERSTAND;
ITS GOOD IF TEST/EXAM DOESN'T EXIST AT ALL, OR EVER.
SO-CALLED SYSTEM.
#Whatever.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Diary 36
.
The introvert, extrovert and ambivert.
How I hate myself for being such contract ambivert.
Damn it.
I don't feel sorry actually, for almost everything happen.
But at the same time, I felt so awful for letting everything bad happen.
Argh!!!!! Trapped again. Dang it.
Human's existence themselves are so contradict.
I wish I could do something to change it.
Sometimes, I really don't feel sorry for not involving, not joining any conversation or in fact, being so-called "Anti-social". Cause I feel damn comfortable listening to just the noise created from the conversation. So don't feel sorry dude. I'm totally fine with it. I really had my fun watching or sharing the fun we had or you guys had. LOL!!! even just by the mean of looking at you all retarded-ly. Hahahah!!
So, sincerely from me, don't feel sorry for me not joining the fun.
*cause I'm already having enough fun. XD
*Most importantly, I don't feel left-out.
But, *here's come the contrast.
Of course, its not good being too introvert, I'm doing my way being extrovert as well.
And its not extrovert enough. And, I can't show it all out.
I'm truly sorry. Some kind of feeling give me that being extrovert kinda 'gay'.
I truly sorry for that, given, I used to be molested by a gay uncle.
He kinda, jobbed me.
YES, he blow-jobbed me!!!
Damn it. I wish I doesn't have that experience. :/
Argh!!! Still feel like killing him!
Sorry. Its really kinda star-struck for me.
Just when I'm ready to get into a bigger group of people, things happen.
Damn it. Whatever.
Mayb that's what they call trauma.
and I still trapped there cause I still get scare getting near to gay people.
#NoDiscriminateThough.
Kinda an analysis about me myself.
So, thank you for the consideration.
The introvert, extrovert and ambivert.
How I hate myself for being such contract ambivert.
Damn it.
I don't feel sorry actually, for almost everything happen.
But at the same time, I felt so awful for letting everything bad happen.
Argh!!!!! Trapped again. Dang it.
Human's existence themselves are so contradict.
I wish I could do something to change it.
Sometimes, I really don't feel sorry for not involving, not joining any conversation or in fact, being so-called "Anti-social". Cause I feel damn comfortable listening to just the noise created from the conversation. So don't feel sorry dude. I'm totally fine with it. I really had my fun watching or sharing the fun we had or you guys had. LOL!!! even just by the mean of looking at you all retarded-ly. Hahahah!!
So, sincerely from me, don't feel sorry for me not joining the fun.
*cause I'm already having enough fun. XD
*Most importantly, I don't feel left-out.
But, *here's come the contrast.
Of course, its not good being too introvert, I'm doing my way being extrovert as well.
And its not extrovert enough. And, I can't show it all out.
I'm truly sorry. Some kind of feeling give me that being extrovert kinda 'gay'.
I truly sorry for that, given, I used to be molested by a gay uncle.
He kinda, jobbed me.
YES, he blow-jobbed me!!!
Damn it. I wish I doesn't have that experience. :/
Argh!!! Still feel like killing him!
Sorry. Its really kinda star-struck for me.
Just when I'm ready to get into a bigger group of people, things happen.
Damn it. Whatever.
Mayb that's what they call trauma.
and I still trapped there cause I still get scare getting near to gay people.
#NoDiscriminateThough.
Kinda an analysis about me myself.
So, thank you for the consideration.
Monday, January 13, 2014
Diary 35
.
Hmph.
I'm kinda blank this recent.
Mayb cause of those memorizing stuff and final paper, midnight oil burning or what-so-ever.
My brain need a rest. Cause those syndrome are showing.
I began to think too much, mood swinging.
And get way too emotional at sometime.
But I can't help it. I really can't, unless you give me money and time, and chances.
*p.s//I know I'm way too greedy.
Whatever.
Money, is not enough no matter what,when or how.
Damn you government. Thanks for the hike.
Now, I got to struggle more. Fuck it.
And now I really mean it.
I got my life, my way, and ma style.
And money plays a bigger role in my life since its lacking get more obvious.
Damn you for the hike.
I'll show you my vendetta face/force someday.
You just wait.
Now here's a [[midfing]] as appetizer.
Time.
Constraint by most of the people around me.
How I hate these people could please do yourself a favor.
Please, if you are not helping, do walk away yourself.
I don't need you to spoil my plan, waste my time convincing you.
And you are not even being considerate to me.
I hate how you all think my time is yours sometimes.
Imma not gonna let you waste my time and money socializing with useless information and people.
Well, it wasn't all you guys fault anyway, I was being too kind and never learn hoe to reject. My bad.
And that how I was being abused.
Chances.
For somebody who really have something in their mind,
The only reason for them being upset was -- not a chance are given or granted.
Damn it! Even if there is really a chances there,
Those dumbass around you will still be dumbass,
Not being able to put some gamble in their life, and give it a try.
Once in a while, create your luck la please!!!!
And can't you guys just believe in the luck you created???!!
Chances are there all the time.
Its just you the one who don't appreciate it and not brave enough to challenge it.
Why you being so coward!!!
Another topic bout chances,
Do create your own chances.
Don't ever let negative people stop you.
Do create it and believe in its creation,
Cause nobody gonna believe that there is a chance if the creator he himself doesn't believe in it.
Have faith and fight for it!!!!!! ARgh!!!!!!!!
Follow your heart!!!!!
Otherwise, don't show your pathetic face around!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED MONEY, TIME, and CHANCES!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!
MONEY - TO DONE ME WITH ALL THE SUPPLEMENT AND MATERIAL.
TIME - TO DONE ME WITH KNOWLEDGE AND OPPORTUNITY!!!!
CHANCES - TO DONE ME WITH KNOWLEDGE AND MOTIVATION.
Hell ya'!!!!! Dang it!!!
I'm indeed a lazy brat.
Who the hell in this would have all of this ?..
P.S : just let me put my rant here for just a one post.
I am too tired, I can't focus.Whatever. *SLAP HARD TO FACE*
Hmph.
I'm kinda blank this recent.
Mayb cause of those memorizing stuff and final paper, midnight oil burning or what-so-ever.
My brain need a rest. Cause those syndrome are showing.
I began to think too much, mood swinging.
And get way too emotional at sometime.
But I can't help it. I really can't, unless you give me money and time, and chances.
*p.s//I know I'm way too greedy.
Whatever.
Money, is not enough no matter what,when or how.
Damn you government. Thanks for the hike.
Now, I got to struggle more. Fuck it.
And now I really mean it.
I got my life, my way, and ma style.
And money plays a bigger role in my life since its lacking get more obvious.
Damn you for the hike.
I'll show you my vendetta face/force someday.
You just wait.
Now here's a [[midfing]] as appetizer.
Time.
Constraint by most of the people around me.
How I hate these people could please do yourself a favor.
Please, if you are not helping, do walk away yourself.
I don't need you to spoil my plan, waste my time convincing you.
And you are not even being considerate to me.
I hate how you all think my time is yours sometimes.
Imma not gonna let you waste my time and money socializing with useless information and people.
Well, it wasn't all you guys fault anyway, I was being too kind and never learn hoe to reject. My bad.
And that how I was being abused.
Chances.
For somebody who really have something in their mind,
The only reason for them being upset was -- not a chance are given or granted.
Damn it! Even if there is really a chances there,
Those dumbass around you will still be dumbass,
Not being able to put some gamble in their life, and give it a try.
Once in a while, create your luck la please!!!!
And can't you guys just believe in the luck you created???!!
Chances are there all the time.
Its just you the one who don't appreciate it and not brave enough to challenge it.
Why you being so coward!!!
Another topic bout chances,
Do create your own chances.
Don't ever let negative people stop you.
Do create it and believe in its creation,
Cause nobody gonna believe that there is a chance if the creator he himself doesn't believe in it.
Have faith and fight for it!!!!!! ARgh!!!!!!!!
Follow your heart!!!!!
Otherwise, don't show your pathetic face around!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED MONEY, TIME, and CHANCES!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!
MONEY - TO DONE ME WITH ALL THE SUPPLEMENT AND MATERIAL.
TIME - TO DONE ME WITH KNOWLEDGE AND OPPORTUNITY!!!!
CHANCES - TO DONE ME WITH KNOWLEDGE AND MOTIVATION.
Hell ya'!!!!! Dang it!!!
I'm indeed a lazy brat.
Who the hell in this would have all of this ?..
P.S : just let me put my rant here for just a one post.
I am too tired, I can't focus.Whatever. *SLAP HARD TO FACE*
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Diary 34
.
Fighter.
Thee only option is fight.
Made for fight. Born to fight.
Everyone should be born a fighter.
Maybe I don't have the right to judge who is/isn't a fighter,
But, I bet you what, I definitely can see who's a better fighter out there.
Keep fighting the battle, fighter.
With the pride of each of every fighter that existed,
FIGHT FOR IT ! So, fight it.
Fighter.
Thee only option is fight.
Made for fight. Born to fight.
Everyone should be born a fighter.
Maybe I don't have the right to judge who is/isn't a fighter,
But, I bet you what, I definitely can see who's a better fighter out there.
Keep fighting the battle, fighter.
With the pride of each of every fighter that existed,
FIGHT FOR IT ! So, fight it.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Diary 33
.
Its new year, and I ain't stopping to just observe.
I'm still trying to beat the mind in me that you are still savable.
Whatever.
And please help me to not look down on you anymore.
I'm standing at a very clear position,
Trying to beat every fucked up rumor about you.
Dear Mr.E, prove that the other was wrong, solidly.
Otherwise, I'm done, and you will be done as well.
Its new year, and I ain't stopping to just observe.
I'm still trying to beat the mind in me that you are still savable.
Whatever.
And please help me to not look down on you anymore.
I'm standing at a very clear position,
Trying to beat every fucked up rumor about you.
Dear Mr.E, prove that the other was wrong, solidly.
Otherwise, I'm done, and you will be done as well.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Complete Review
.
Honestly, I think I degraded myself in this year.
I'm still as nice as I'm,
I'm still incomplete as usual,
I'm still as funny as usual,
I'm still as emotional as usual.
I'm still what I am.
People say you will changed to be more mature every year than previous.
But I don't see I'm changing.
I'm kinda tired actually,
Dream always couldn't be achieve.
And I kept on attach myself to the thing around me at the current.
I'm contracting myself.
I'm playing myself.
I'm tired but I can't rest, its really harsh for me.
How I wish I could go just as fragile as ever and just release everything out, at once and not to think about how the future will turn out to be.
Whatever, just cut it off.
This should be a overall review of what happened in the year of 2013.
Anyway, everyone are fighting a battle which none of us would have known better.
Yes, not matter how excel you are, you are still you, be yourself, even if it means to everything behind and start new. Its ok, just start new then, when people regret or start to feel sorry, get back again, be pathetic, and cure these people who hurt you before. And be kind, always.
*Unless there is a real bastard-asshole out there.*
Anyway, its New Year, 2014.
Start it, Brace it and take control over it.
Or at least, try make it more pain and memorable.
And Wola. :D
Honestly, I think I degraded myself in this year.
I'm still as nice as I'm,
I'm still incomplete as usual,
I'm still as funny as usual,
I'm still as emotional as usual.
I'm still what I am.
People say you will changed to be more mature every year than previous.
But I don't see I'm changing.
I'm kinda tired actually,
Dream always couldn't be achieve.
And I kept on attach myself to the thing around me at the current.
I'm contracting myself.
I'm playing myself.
I'm tired but I can't rest, its really harsh for me.
How I wish I could go just as fragile as ever and just release everything out, at once and not to think about how the future will turn out to be.
Whatever, just cut it off.
This should be a overall review of what happened in the year of 2013.
Anyway, everyone are fighting a battle which none of us would have known better.
Yes, not matter how excel you are, you are still you, be yourself, even if it means to everything behind and start new. Its ok, just start new then, when people regret or start to feel sorry, get back again, be pathetic, and cure these people who hurt you before. And be kind, always.
*Unless there is a real bastard-asshole out there.*
Anyway, its New Year, 2014.
Start it, Brace it and take control over it.
Or at least, try make it more pain and memorable.
And Wola. :D
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