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Sometimes in our life,
we would felt so helplessly lost.
Or HARD.

Maybe that all that need to destroy our one fine day is that one tiny little hard time or feeling. So small enough that it can actually cause a tremendous wave or affection deep inside our heart. Which that struck us, kill us, saddened us, shock us, and even changes us. So what can we do about it ? Get your ass up and START MAKE SOME CHANGES !!..

*Yes, you may say I'm way too impetuous. 
But what can I do ?.. I'm just nobody.
WHAT CAN I DO ?.. 
I can only gather up power and I'm doing my very best right now, to try influence others, to try and make them more selfless, and be more lovely. Wasn't it great if the world are made up of people who doesn't care about right or wrong but just simply wanted to be with us longer and get true ???..

Diary 45

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This is a total devastated period of mine.
I fail to prolong my peak. 

Actually I can and able to prolong it.
But, I don't really get why, I just can't do it.
Anyway, don't comfort me. 

I don't need comfort.
I need some extreme thought.
To excite me. 

To wake me up. 

To mind shock me.
To mind-fuck me. 

To threaten or even kill me.

Don't get wrong. 

I just need to get excited in creativity and why does it so hard to do thing under some guideline.
Just screw them. 

#ThinkOutOfTheBox

#DoOutOfTheBox

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Seriously, I don't gay.
Instead, I hate gay. I get scared.
But I do give my support to gay people.
So, don't EVER compare me with any kind of gay out there.

I give my support to any LGBT out there.
And people, I like girl very much.
I seems contradict with what I'm talking about here right ?..
Whatever. I watched gay-porn before.
Its kinda disgusting, from my perspective.
And you know why ? *Cause I'm not gay.

OH !
And btw, I don't think any hetero will do better than gay or lesbian people do.
There are way too many people who don't explore themselves to live in this world.
I can't say anything. Sometimes, I'm being lazy too.
But, I do very clear that who I am to myself.
So, don't ever judge be for being sissy sometimes or all the time.
And don't judge me for being gay or still remain single after so long.

I used to be a victim of gay sex assault.
So I can't say much. Even if I had the chances to.
But I put my word ahead, I support LGBT, pink, purple, blue or whatever color it is.
I don't give a fuck! Just go ahead and use them you will have my support,
but just don't come clinging around me. You are disgusting.
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And Dear hetero,
You guys are not anywhere not-more-disgusting-than-LGBT too.
So, get a mirror to reflect yourself, before you saying others.
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