Anonymous 1

Hmmm...
Am I being too attentive ?
Cause I did it again.

I went and utter everything out.
Pretending I really care bout it.
The Ancient Chinese say, 真金不怕红炉火.
Meaning, if you have done nothing wrong,
you shouldn't get nervous,

cause the truth will alway be the last winner.

But,
What if the opponent was too strong ?
What if they come prepared while I'm not ?
What if they lose having faith in me when they saw me busy preparing all the evidence while I have many thing to do ?

I'm mentally tore.
What else could have been more tiring than this ?

Cycling half a n hour few times a day just doesn't help.
I'm not letting it go. WHY ?
GOD WHY THIS HAVE TO BE HAPPENING TO ME ?
DAMN IT! And I can't say "FUCK !"

And why ?
I'm not politician, not revolutionist, not teacher, not principal, not parent, not someone having strong institution or so-called 德高望重. I've already put all my shiny armor down even if I used to have one. But still, WHY ?!
And here, I'm 'pushing myself to my limit'.
I'm 'giving no space to anyone'.

And that why I said, I'm done.
Other can't feel your tiredness in mental.
So, just get over it.
And End it if you were able to.