Diary 20

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I'm a bit of swinging right now.
Going to have test after another 12 or 11 hours.
But I'm not studying.
As if I never thought of studying actually.
I can't ? I avoid ? I ignore ?..

I can't tell anymore.
Is there anything that can be undone ?
I'm trying to beat that stupid mind of mine to take the note.
Trying to look at it.
But why ? I can't.
Even repeatedly copying the note,
I never thinks of it.

Honestly, ZERO knowledge about it.
Its Physics Mathematics for me.

Is it being too hard for a normal people ?
Or my mind was being blocked cause I wasn't being passionate about Math ?
Its confusing. I can't tell.
Would it be better if I just sleep now ?
Sounds so wrong but so right.
If I can't study, I should just let it be right ?
At least I still can get my rest and will be much energized up to answer the question tomorrow.
OR If I force myself to study, I should get at least not zero for the test right ?..
So which way ?..