Diary 18

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I'm letting it go, and hence I'm missing you.
I'll be patience until the day true friendship appear.

If friendship was to be this shallow,
then so be it.
If the bond are to be this weak,
then so be it.
If the treasure between us are to be this unmemorable,
then so be it.
If all the understanding before this was wrong,
then so be it.

You keep your life there,
I keep mine.
I treasure relationship as if a gem, a diamond.
If I was wrong, then so be it.

I've been quite confused, with love and friendship.
Love should be a bigger topic right ?
But I know, clearly, I wasn't even half-way to love.
As for friendship, I know I was right.
If you are my friend in my list, I'll treasure you the whole life.
That's friendship right ?
If I had tried to avoid you, then you should be wary,
Cause you ain't nothing to me,
Stop hurting yourself to understand or to pity me.
I don't need all these from you.
If I tried to approached you, and we kinda like clicked on, then its good!
We can be friend, but leave some respect.
I will be super supportive to you, but don't challenge my life principle.
I have to admit, my life principle was rather easy to get challenge one.
But, you pass this one, you pass the whole test/obstacles!
I don't need all those bullshitting mask smiling, socialize or fake bullshit in front of me.
I don't need extra good deeds from you. I DON'T NEED ALL THAT.
I'll see you as my friend, yes, the original you.
The you that can talk with me endlessly regarding everything I know and you know.
Maybe you'll keep that part to your wife, but its ok. Who cares ?!
But don't get changed easily. Don't get fake. Don't get me wrong about you.

I do treasure relationship as if a diamond those richie seek for their generations.
But you ain't diamond, you are more than that.

All these are bull shit,
I should've done talking.

I am getting too over right now.
Alright, post above may sound gay/ewww but its true and sincere.
And I'm NOT GAY. Its a damn stupid post to a stupid friend.