Why ? I'm just NOT the typical one.
Stop trying to make me one.
I'm so tired trying to be cool every time things happen.
Just Me and Tangie. A Revolutionist.
This is a loner pledge.
That the soloist will stay solo and alone in any term.
I'm not a team player at all.
Being strong for me doesn't need a team at all.
I'm strong enough at this current.
And so, this is my loner pledge.
Certain people fail me and they cripple everything about me.
I'm not a complete peacemaker or peace follower.
Everyone has dark side as dark days is common.
The thing about being too wise is, people keep misinterpreted you in their own perspective.
Thinking that you are stupid, ignore everything you try to do and say.
And they get what they want using your opinion, you got none of the share.
Thank you for fooling me.
I knew what you think about me, pretty clear that I read some mind too.
So speak you fucking mind out.
Sorry you are correct is not that hard.
If it really feels harsh for you, here this loner pledge from me to you.
Sometimes in life, you will find yourself lost and got nothing else to wish for, other than your dream.
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There is no life without secrets.
Human lie to keep their secret.
We lied.
Whether its on purpose or not, its a lie.
I lie. I found guilty about it.
I can't be completely honest.
I hate lying.
To be honest, its so much fun having a secret life where nobody would judge you for what you do and what you like.
This world is so fucking hypocrite.
One time they want you to be who you are and another time they would judge you for who you truly are.
Its not I'm not trying.
That's obviously a trap.
Or a scam, to troll you, to make you regret for who you are.
Why am I so pathetic?!
Do you all understood that being great or good wasn't that easy?
I can really feel my heart breaks inside.
I can't control my life you know,not every part of it.
I even felt ashamed talking about it.
I'll just be single, forever.
Until things get changed.
Just do it.
You are going to train hard.
You haven't got anything that you wanted yet.
Don't give up and just do it.
Tomorrow will be judgment day, just do it.
And break thru.
Internship
Well, I guess I has leave the virtual world a long time.
Many thought flashed through.
Many thought make me think.
Many thought make me wonder.
The future, the people, the attitude, the thought they probable having, their decision that regret, the faith-leaping step, the young and stupid act, the so normal reaction, the chain reaction of everything and about me myself.
Thinking that this may be the future I would get.
Thinking that I should not have made up my mind.
Thinking that I should think really well first.
Thinking that how the future should be.
It all make me wonder.
What if I didn't choose to take the faith-leaping step.
I should not regret anything by now.
*HUGE SIGH*
Where should I start?
I hate the place where I start.
I spent all my life here, up until now.
And I can't even get a proper control over it.
Is this my problem or what?
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So, this is the first day of intern.
It will just be nothing. Be normal, show them what you have got inside your pocket and seal it in front of them. You do not belong here. Your life meant to do others things. It do not belongs HERE.